Small little rant

On to blog number two! (thanks yve for guiding me lol, I will get the hang of this, I swear)

Anyhoo, for the record, I don't want to cause any more problems, this is just me pondering about a few things.

Its always a mine field when talking about in-laws.

Okay, so I have a very close relationship with my mother, and over the years, I know that we all have different relationships with our parents. Some good, some bad and some are just *blink*

And the relationship my man has with his, is a big time *blink blink*

Don't get me wrong, I like them. I really do. They are not bad people at all and the kids adore them.
But it just gets to me their apparent lack of support. Throughout every milestone we had, it just seemed to be another lecture.
And this is right from the beginning.
Now I understand how it might be a bit wary for your child to fall in love with an older woman who already has two kids, and I understand the concern of that woman is just trying to use your son. It took a while for that to sink in that it wasn't my intention. And I was always understanding of that.
But then we got engaged, and while everyone on my end were absolutely thrilled, they seemed more reluctant than ever.
Same with the baby. (news about baby later on)
Everyone, even though they knew it wasn't a planned thing, they were happy for us. My mother, ecstatic, friends not surprised but happy for us regardless.
Their reaction? "How did this happen?"
What do I say to that? Do I pull out two dolls and show them? And here I was wondering why he was so petrified to tell them the news. I never felt so small and uncomfortable in my life. (okay that's not true, I had many moments like that but still :P)

Then came last night, when he called about our wedding plans. I want to give them the benefit of the doubt, perhaps he called at a bad time. But I was honestly expecting more excitedness.(is that even a word? oh well, it is now)
After all, this is your son's big day.
And to tell you the truth, it hurts. It just feels like no matter what we do, its not good enough. We have been together for almost four years. Engaged, baby the whole bit. I think its safe to say we are pretty much secure in our feelings for each other and that this is what we want.

I know he will never have the same relationship with them as I have with my mother. I just hope one day that they will put their stern opinions aside and just enjoy the huge moments in his life.



On a plus side, while watching a movie last night...there was a lot of moving around in my mommy tummy. My goodness, I forgot how cool it is to feel them moving inside of you. But whats more important, is that my man was able to feel the little one kick and turn! Before he couldn't' tell if it was the baby, or just me having really bad gas. So yay for new daddy feeling baby kick him!

I'll end this for now...you know I will be back

*kissles*